i was eating lunch alone today and someone from my dorm came up to me and started telling me like being alone isn't healthy for you and people that spend their lives alone die 7 years early. he was taking it too seriously from the fact that i was eating alone. i do like to be alone because when you're with other people you have to put up with wat they want to do and sometimes or many times it conflicts with wat you want to do so i like to be by myself a lot to have that peace of doing what i want to do. i would hate to spend the rest of my life alone, but hey if that's how it's going to be that's how it's going to be then; however, i desire a wife and children.

tonight

i was going to get two tatoos tonight but it cost too much. i want seoul korea across my chest in an underarc and my mom's and dad's name in cursive on my left peck. i thought this would be around two hundred dollars, but it cost around three hundred and eight dollars so i didn't do it. i also want my last name, LEWIS, across my belly i think that would be around six hundred dollars. the price for tatoos are ridiculous. with all of that money i can buy a ps3. however a ps3 is a waste of money also. speaking of PS3s, i'm addicted to playing the game Resistance: Fall of Man on it. i played it for awhile with my friend and I tonight after going to the tatoo store. we played it had fun and just chilled. and now i'm bought to watch a movie with my roommates. talk to ya tomrorow. PEACE

sprained my ankle

i sprained my ankle today. It hurt a lot. I was running and it was dark so i couldn't see the uneven ground and parts of trees that were sticking out the ground so my ankle twisted on one of the uneven places. i got a knee surgery about a year and 3 months ago because i tore my ACL, which sucked i couldn't play my senior of basketball and i haven't played basketball with 100% strength in my knee yet. however wen i did sprain my ankle today, before that i was like sprinting pretty well faster that i usually do so i see that my knee is getting a lot stronger. i just need to start jumping off it soon. well usually wen i sprain my ankle i need crutches or something but i guess because i havne't sprained my ankle in so long my ligaments and tissue were really strong in my foot and ankle so it didn't hurt that much. i can walk well on myh ankle i just have a little limp.

why did God let humans get in the way of his Truth? There's so many religions that millions of people believe in. many people die without hearing the gospel. due to this, it's hard for me and i'm sure for other people to believe that God is working. i dont have doubt in God though, and not in Christianity, for I am a Christian. It's just that i have many unanswered questions that makes me not want to live for God. sometimes i wonder if i'll do this my whole life, live it by myself and not ever having an awesome relationship with God. i certainly don't want that to happen, so when is God going to embrace my heart and make us close? that's another thing! God won't do that, it's up to me if i want a close, intimate relationship with God. that just makes it so hard, my sinful nature which i'm like intensely, extemely controlled by tells me not to.

if a place in Heaven dependend on works, everyone would go to Heaven cuz' everyone can do a good work. However, it's not that simple. You have to come to a decision to give your life up, deny yourself, and give your life to Jesus Christ. That put it into a whole different perspective. Not everyone will be willing to deny themselves, and believe in Jesus Christ. What i don't comprehend is is that a person that's not saved but is good, unselfish, righteous, nice, and graceful as a Christian won't go to Heaven. The only way to go to Heaven is through belief in Jesus Christ. Just because that innocent person didn't believe in Jesus Christ but a Christian (saved person) was maybe just as wrong as that unsaved person will still go to Heaven. oh well it all goes back to the Truth, Jesus said Himself that not everyone will go to Heaven, the way is narrow and not many people will go through it.

Today i went to the post office today to pick up the red sweater and blue jeans that i ordered from American Eagle. I'm satisfied that i got them now because i thought they would get here by the time i left back home to Seoul. I studied for my math exam which is on tuesday. I think i'm going to do well on that exam. i'm bout to go eat and when i come back to my dorm, i'm going to study for my english exam. I also exercised today, i was on the bike machine thing for about ten-fifteen minutes. and then i worked out on my abs. I'm eating a lot healthier now and some my abs are starting to become visisible. I bought some expensive stuff at GNC yesterday. I boguht muscle milk, amino acids, and a multivitamin thing. it was really expensive, so it better work.

if i truly feared God, i wouln't try to disobey Him; however, i choose to break His laws with no repentance, therefore i don't fear Him. I do fear God in to a certain extent though. I know that God is omnipotent and omniscient. God can do whatever he wants except sin. He can end my life right now. I have more pride in me than God, and I think that's why i dont pray and try to live my life the way i want to. If life's purpose is to be in a relationship with God and totally live for him, everyone who is living for themselves or not to that purpose are wasting their lives. that's one thing i dont want to do, waste my life. LIVING FOR God IS SO HARD THOUGH! not even that i don't even want to so how do i can i attempt it again.