thank you God bringing me to Liberty University
thank you for letting me be in a country where i can worhsip you freely
thank you for letting me b in a country where i can feel convenient with saying that i'm a Christian and to read your Bible
thank you for my family for they support me and love
thank you for my friends that i have for i learn from them and learn how to love others
thank you for my pain for i learned how to be a strong man and it made me wise
thank you for allowing me to live today
thank you for saving my soul Lord
thank you for education
thank you for love
thank you for everything
i thank you God for my first semester of college being awesome and if it is your will for me to have more semester of college at liberty i hope they are awesome too.

my first semester of college was pretty well. i made new friends. i learned about worldviews and just a whole bunch of other cool stuff in GNED like logical fallacies. english class taught me to write better essays in which more logical coherence vocabulary usage and all of that jazz. my math class wasn't a waste of time which i thoguht it was. it was a good time to brush up on the things i need to know to excel int he upper math classes that await me. i met a lot of good people here. it helped me to get a vision of what i want to do with my life.

it's funny how people try to justify something wrong. for example a friend of mine smokes and as he decided to quit he said that he was going to keep his lighter so that if someone else needed it to smoke. so i said why would u help someone to smoke when you're quitting because you know that it's unhealthy. basically, he defended himself by saying that he's looking out for that person because they need something. i mean yeah that's good to look out for people but is it for a good end. looking out for someone to inhale chemicals into their body and damage theirs lungs and everything in their body their brain isn't right. also the other night this same friend threw a bottle at our other friend's car because someone in that car threw a bottle at his car of course. even though they did it first it doesn't justify that act by doing it back when it was wrong in the first place. and i explained this to him, and he still tried to justify it. o well, i just do my best to be in honest and speak what's right and if they don't understand or agree i leave it up to God.

today i had my math 100 final exam. it was EASY! i think i got a 95 or higher. there were a few things that i wasn't sure about. also i had my new testament bible class final exam. it was an open book exam. even though it was open book i didn't get an A on it. i hated flipping through the book looking for all of the answers so i just guessed or use common sense to on some of the questions. i did my laundry today. i was scared for a second doing my laundry because before i put my hands on my colored clothes i thought i had clorox on my fingers and i wasn't sure if i did or not so i thoguth my colored clothes were gonig to come out bleached thank God that it didn't. i bleached two hoodies and a nice ralph lauren shirt already. i bleahed the ralph lauren shirt like two weeks after i got it i was aaaaaanngry. oh well ddong happens so you can learn from them. i also sold back some of my books. i'm really tempted to sell back my english books but i also want to keep them because i may need them in the future.

before i went to sleep last night i spoke with a friend and a prayer leader in my room. We talked about my questioning of why God allows people to go to Hell and about all of our temjptations and stuff. I'm saved but sometimes i doubt it so at the end of the conversation i prayed the prayer to be saved. with the friend i talked with last night, he always encourages me. he makes me want to take action on the crossroad that i am and attempt to walk the road with Jesus. neways..i have a math 100 exam at 1030 am which i'm really prepared for and i didn't study tha tmcuh for it and then i have my Bible exam at 1:00 pm.

how do you tell your own friend a good friend that he is annoying. or maybe i just get irritated easily which i think is kind of true. neway today i woke up had breakfast and came back and took a like 3 hour nap which i didn't intend on doing but since i have a runny nose and a sore throat my body needed more rest. i studied for english and math today and a little for my bible class, new testament with dr. towns. my Bible exam is oben book. i studied a lil bit or in other words read through a book for my Bible class to know where i need to go to to find an answer during the exam. the exam isn't even that long i think it's just about 40 questions. i didn't learn that much in my Bible class it is kind of my fault because if i truly wanted to learn iw ouldn't done it myself but i think the professor for the Bible class that i'm in should find a different kind of teaching method. the time of the day for that class wasn't good for me too. it was from 2 o'clock to three fifteen. so yeah i was up for about almost 6-7 hours already with about 6 hours of sleep so i got sleepy in that class all of the time.

i went to church this morning. it was Dr. Town's sunday school. The lesson was about the seven "I am"s in the gospel of John. i forgot a lot about the lesson because i was thinking about a girl that was sitting a row ahead of me. she was so pretty. i was thinking if i should go up to her and ask her if i could sit with her or i should try to catch up with her after the service and introduce myself and just talk with her. she's so pretty! after the service she walked out pretty quickly and i thought i could still bump into her outside for both of us were there to get extra credit and with the notes we fill out for extra credit we have to take a to a desk so that's what i mean when i thoguht iwas oging to bump into her it hoguth i would see her there but I DIDN"T. oh well. i've been seeing her once in awhile on campus. she's been giving me that eye-contact. i'm going to try to talk to her the next time i see her.

i was eating lunch alone today and someone from my dorm came up to me and started telling me like being alone isn't healthy for you and people that spend their lives alone die 7 years early. he was taking it too seriously from the fact that i was eating alone. i do like to be alone because when you're with other people you have to put up with wat they want to do and sometimes or many times it conflicts with wat you want to do so i like to be by myself a lot to have that peace of doing what i want to do. i would hate to spend the rest of my life alone, but hey if that's how it's going to be that's how it's going to be then; however, i desire a wife and children.

tonight

i was going to get two tatoos tonight but it cost too much. i want seoul korea across my chest in an underarc and my mom's and dad's name in cursive on my left peck. i thought this would be around two hundred dollars, but it cost around three hundred and eight dollars so i didn't do it. i also want my last name, LEWIS, across my belly i think that would be around six hundred dollars. the price for tatoos are ridiculous. with all of that money i can buy a ps3. however a ps3 is a waste of money also. speaking of PS3s, i'm addicted to playing the game Resistance: Fall of Man on it. i played it for awhile with my friend and I tonight after going to the tatoo store. we played it had fun and just chilled. and now i'm bought to watch a movie with my roommates. talk to ya tomrorow. PEACE

sprained my ankle

i sprained my ankle today. It hurt a lot. I was running and it was dark so i couldn't see the uneven ground and parts of trees that were sticking out the ground so my ankle twisted on one of the uneven places. i got a knee surgery about a year and 3 months ago because i tore my ACL, which sucked i couldn't play my senior of basketball and i haven't played basketball with 100% strength in my knee yet. however wen i did sprain my ankle today, before that i was like sprinting pretty well faster that i usually do so i see that my knee is getting a lot stronger. i just need to start jumping off it soon. well usually wen i sprain my ankle i need crutches or something but i guess because i havne't sprained my ankle in so long my ligaments and tissue were really strong in my foot and ankle so it didn't hurt that much. i can walk well on myh ankle i just have a little limp.

why did God let humans get in the way of his Truth? There's so many religions that millions of people believe in. many people die without hearing the gospel. due to this, it's hard for me and i'm sure for other people to believe that God is working. i dont have doubt in God though, and not in Christianity, for I am a Christian. It's just that i have many unanswered questions that makes me not want to live for God. sometimes i wonder if i'll do this my whole life, live it by myself and not ever having an awesome relationship with God. i certainly don't want that to happen, so when is God going to embrace my heart and make us close? that's another thing! God won't do that, it's up to me if i want a close, intimate relationship with God. that just makes it so hard, my sinful nature which i'm like intensely, extemely controlled by tells me not to.

if a place in Heaven dependend on works, everyone would go to Heaven cuz' everyone can do a good work. However, it's not that simple. You have to come to a decision to give your life up, deny yourself, and give your life to Jesus Christ. That put it into a whole different perspective. Not everyone will be willing to deny themselves, and believe in Jesus Christ. What i don't comprehend is is that a person that's not saved but is good, unselfish, righteous, nice, and graceful as a Christian won't go to Heaven. The only way to go to Heaven is through belief in Jesus Christ. Just because that innocent person didn't believe in Jesus Christ but a Christian (saved person) was maybe just as wrong as that unsaved person will still go to Heaven. oh well it all goes back to the Truth, Jesus said Himself that not everyone will go to Heaven, the way is narrow and not many people will go through it.

Today i went to the post office today to pick up the red sweater and blue jeans that i ordered from American Eagle. I'm satisfied that i got them now because i thought they would get here by the time i left back home to Seoul. I studied for my math exam which is on tuesday. I think i'm going to do well on that exam. i'm bout to go eat and when i come back to my dorm, i'm going to study for my english exam. I also exercised today, i was on the bike machine thing for about ten-fifteen minutes. and then i worked out on my abs. I'm eating a lot healthier now and some my abs are starting to become visisible. I bought some expensive stuff at GNC yesterday. I boguht muscle milk, amino acids, and a multivitamin thing. it was really expensive, so it better work.

if i truly feared God, i wouln't try to disobey Him; however, i choose to break His laws with no repentance, therefore i don't fear Him. I do fear God in to a certain extent though. I know that God is omnipotent and omniscient. God can do whatever he wants except sin. He can end my life right now. I have more pride in me than God, and I think that's why i dont pray and try to live my life the way i want to. If life's purpose is to be in a relationship with God and totally live for him, everyone who is living for themselves or not to that purpose are wasting their lives. that's one thing i dont want to do, waste my life. LIVING FOR God IS SO HARD THOUGH! not even that i don't even want to so how do i can i attempt it again.

what is love? Is love just an emotion? what does love mean? Love is a crazy thing but i think love is just simply defined as caring about someone else. God sacrificed His Son Jesus for us because he cares about us He wants us to be in Heaven with Him for eternity because of his care for us He loves us. My mom calls me feeds me gives me money because she cares or loves me. Parents discipline their children out of love. They don't want them to continue doing wrong, because they love them to do what's right. i'm going to start asking others what they of what love is. I've also learned that love is doing the best for someone and that's also caring abotu someone else. If you care for someone else, you want to help them and be there for them and want and do the best for him or her.

Heart of Champion

I love the thought of having the heart of a Champion. It's so hard to be Christ-like though, so hard i don't even want to attempt it. many time i feel like God leave me on my own to do walk the Christian life too. So what i do is i pray for help and if i dont see any changes, i just live life the way i want to. i'm torn in between the two of a sinful life and the desire to live for God. My mind is so messed up, because i'm kind of serving two master and YOU CAN"T DO THAT. Jesus says it Himself. Jerry Falwell seems like an awesome God-fearing guy. I'm blessed to have a God that works in people to make them want to start a school such as Liberty University. I'm glad that i'm here. The education is great and if you want to be a Christian that can defend his or her faith, it's a great place and one of the best places to increase your relationship with God. There's a lot of awesome people here but the same as everywhere else there's some people that i kind of loathe.

continuation of Revelation

HOWEVER i should be happy about Jesus coming back. So the Bible can be proven by sight and Jesus can start his reign so a new world can start and all of that good stuff, but i recognized that i'm too selfish to be happy about that because even when some good happening for everybody i'm still thinking about my own little wants and stuff. I know that God understand me, but wants me to totally surrender my life to Him so i can live it to the fullest in Him until I die or Jesus returns. I tried reading Revelation and I didn't understand that much, but taht was awhile ago i matured a little so if i do read it now i think i might comprehend a little more plus with God's help and others' thoughts about it too.

Revelation

yesterday in Bible class, dr. towns was talking about the book of Revelation. I was getting scared during this class period, because i was jsut thinking what if Jesus came back right now, today, or tomorrow or next week. i know that that is the ultimate joy for Christians, but me personally i know or in better words i want to enjoy the good earthly things too like marriage and family and the career that i want. I was also thinking about what if Jesus didn't come back like now or soon and i had children and Jesus came back during the infant life of my children; i didn't feel that happy about that either. I want my children to explore the good life on earth too, it's just something about it. I'm certain that Heaven is like waaay better i mean i can't even measure how much better it is then the good stuff on earth, but iw ould want my children to have love family marriage play sports get an education too.

Tatoos

I really want tatoos; however i think they are wrong. Especially in my case. I want to get a tatoo of my dad's name on my chest and he passed away. The Bible says to not get writings on your body of the dead. My reasoning of tatoos being wrong is that you should only spend money on things that you need such as food, clothes, and family, education, shelter and the necessities. I think it'll look good though. Some girls are attracted to guys with tattoos, but if a girl is attracted to me because of my tatoos id ont want anything to do with her beccause that shows her shallowness. maybe if i get a lot of money, i'll get tatoos. but if i get a lot money i'll still be obliged to spend money on neccessities or share more of it, for the well-being of others matter more about my appearance.

convo was awesome today. I think the speaker's name was Scott Anderson. I have a lot of respect for Mr. Anderson, for he has alot of courage to talk in front of a multitude of people with his different way of speaking. His message was to whatever worries and fears you have, give it to God. Drop it and let God take care of it. I have worries and fears. I worry about not getting a job after i graduate from college. I worry about finances. I worry about not getting married or firstly not getting a girlfriend. I fear wasting my life. but how in the heck do i drop all of that and let God take care of it. I'm still going to have to do something. I feel i dont even drop it and let God take care of it because i'm still doing the work...o well God knows my heart and yeah He does what He wants to do.

If i dont get a job during winter break which i highly doubt, i'm going to try to read two books. Firstly i want to finish the book, God the Evidence and part 5, the voyage of the dawn treader, of the Chronicles of Narnia. i'm going to face MANY MANY MANY temptations when i go back home. Lord's strength can only help me flee from those, because i won't be able to do it on my own. i really hope i get a job though. There's a preschool right downstairs of my mother's apartment, so i'm going to try to get some kind of job there. I'm not just concerned of getting money, but i want to help my mom with paying for my college stuff. With the money that i get if i get a job, i'm going to buy my school books with it. And if i have left overs, i'm going to buy clothes. well, the night is still young i'm going to study some math, and then go play pool with my good friend at the LaHaye Student Center. And yeah i'll come back to my dorm, shower, watch a movie, and sleep.

I'm reading God the Evidence- The reconciliation of Faith and Reason in a Postsecular World by Patrick Glynn. I've read only read one chapter and a half, but i like it a lot. I learned about some people that influence the world with their philosophies of science. I learned that precise things occured in order for humanity to be produced and for the universe to be created and function correctly such as: if the nuclear weak force had been slightly weaker than it s, all of the hydrogen in the universe would have been turned to helium in(making water impossible, for example). And if there was no water, humans couldn't live for as long as they do and everything would be screwed up because we rely on water for many things.

Working out today

Today i was on the mechanical bike for about 15 minutes and i worked myself fairly hard on it. i could've worked a lot harder. I worked out on my abs too. Abs are always tough for me, because i barely worked out on them ever. I'm producing hard abs though slowly. I need to eat healthier so that i can lose body fat so my abs will be more visible. I'm getting more serious with my weight lifting and physical goals and it's helping me quit my sins. I shot around a little bit with a friend of mine and played ping pong too. both exercises were tedious. ping pong was a lot of fun because the friend i play with is always competitive. it was a good game because he was always about 4-6 points ahead and when it was 19 to 11 i caught up a lot to 20 to 18 and then he won 21 18. i learned from my mistakes though and simple things like make sure to always hit the ball over the net and don't hit the ball with too much power.

I went to Sunday school this morning. I didn't go to Sunday school to get closer to God though, i went solely for extra credit in my bible class. If the Lord is willing, i'll go next sunday with the right heart and get 90% on a quiz. Today i'm just going to exercise eat and do laundry study for math and do some more blogs and review my essay. If i'm not lazy and if i'm willing i'll pray and read the Bible. I've been having troubles with that; I just simply dont want to do it.

Thank you God

God,
thank you for giving me today
thank you for giving me food
thank you for giving me clothes
thank you for giving me money
thank you for giving me a family
thank you for giving me friends
thank you for giving me education
thank you for disciplining me
thank you for blessing me
thank you for loving me
thank you for my past
thank you for my pain
Thank you for always knowing the best thing to do and how things work out for the best for your children. You are awesome. Thank you for everything. Most importantly, thank you for giving the world your Son Jesus to die on the cross for our sins. Thank you.

my friends and i went to the mall last night. I saw a lot of shoes i liked. Especially the Chuck Taylor's shoes. I think i'm going to get the black and blue ones sometime soon. i gotta see how they look on me first though. One thing i liked about the mall last night is that there were some prety girls there, and one of them was looking at me but i didn't have the gux to go talk to her and this happens so many times at school; I need more confidence. Oh well, there'll be more times in the future hopefully, if the God's willing. Also what was funny, a girl smacked my butt twice. first i was bending over looking at chains and then she smacked my butt as she was walking by and she was laughing with her friends. And the second and fortunately the last time as i was walking out wiht my friends we passed her on the bench, and she smacked my butt again. i was like wat the heck. i mean i'm not offended just how does she have the audacity to do that to a complete stranger. she looked like she was 15 years old though so that says a lot haha. neway..

when some people get depressed, they become self-destructive. i'm one of those some people. if i'm sad i wouldn't even try to cheer myself up i like multiply it by sin and listenin'g to depressing music. In addition, all of that just takes me further and further away from God. i dont know if i'm right about this, i might just be rushing to a conclusion; however, last night my friend was acting a little weird( he became from talkative to untalkative and sad). and just something that was going on seemed like he was depressed. but later towards the night luckily one of his friends from home called him and i think that's when he actually cheered up.