if i truly feared God, i wouln't try to disobey Him; however, i choose to break His laws with no repentance, therefore i don't fear Him. I do fear God in to a certain extent though. I know that God is omnipotent and omniscient. God can do whatever he wants except sin. He can end my life right now. I have more pride in me than God, and I think that's why i dont pray and try to live my life the way i want to. If life's purpose is to be in a relationship with God and totally live for him, everyone who is living for themselves or not to that purpose are wasting their lives. that's one thing i dont want to do, waste my life. LIVING FOR God IS SO HARD THOUGH! not even that i don't even want to so how do i can i attempt it again.