continuation of Revelation

HOWEVER i should be happy about Jesus coming back. So the Bible can be proven by sight and Jesus can start his reign so a new world can start and all of that good stuff, but i recognized that i'm too selfish to be happy about that because even when some good happening for everybody i'm still thinking about my own little wants and stuff. I know that God understand me, but wants me to totally surrender my life to Him so i can live it to the fullest in Him until I die or Jesus returns. I tried reading Revelation and I didn't understand that much, but taht was awhile ago i matured a little so if i do read it now i think i might comprehend a little more plus with God's help and others' thoughts about it too.